Suicide Times

I´m waiting for the time of my suicide
The nervous breakdown of my last memories
Catwalk in a cold dark night in my life
Dual concave coffin resides in my heart

Beneath red skies I see my unhappy ending
All I ever wished was someone to love me
All I ever got was a bloody heartbroken
And a beautiful path to end with my filthy life

In all honesty I can say I never hated
In the way you got caught in your mind
Because of my lack of motivation I must die
The only exit in this cruel and shallow world

Writing my suicide note I´ll blame myself
When I know the only guilty is the world
I lost my paradise in this filthy heaven
What everybody used to call paradise regained

And your sedative god will fall in a tremor
A delicate shade of fear drawn in your face
All your fear has become in all you´ve won
But I´m not here to save you from your fate

Your heart ablaze is not where I belong
Conspicuous and immersed that´s no wrong
My date with fate will tell the truth I deserve
I will discover everything I lived it was a deceive