Not Playing As Victim Anymore

My life is a succession of people abusing of me
My life is an endless tale of people just leaving
I´m sick of being the broken one
I´m tired of being the abused one

I always played to be the victim
It´s my turn to be the victimizer
I always played to the the weak
It´s my turn to torture you as I want

The more I fear is I don´t know
What I´m capable to do right now
I´m terrified about what I´m gonna say
But I think I´m losing the control...

Think about me as your killer
Feel me from the skin and scream!
I´m gonna make you puke inside
I´m gonna make you start to beg...

I always acted as the victims do
It´s my turn to take revenge
I always acted as the weak one
It´s my turn to make you feel as you made me

The more I fear is what I know
What´s the next in my weird mind
I´m terrified about I´m gonna say
But I think I lost the control...

Think about me as your killer
Feel the scar I´m gonna make you
I´m gonna make you wish you never being born
I´m gonna make you feel rather being dead